Today 02nd July 2011 is a very important day in my life. Nothing out of ordinary happened and no none of my family or friend have their birthday, anniversary, etc. today, nor do any other special event happened today around me but the day is still special.
Today, my One & half year daughter travelled with me in the car solo. Yes, many kids starts understanding the things by this age and they also travel solo in car with seatbelts on but again its my blog and my expressions.
The drive of 2 kilometres from nearby bus stand to my home was travelled at a blazing fast speed of 15 – 25 km/hr. in 1st and 2nd gear. Being my daughter so naughty, I had no option of putting her on backseat where her last adventure of solo sitting resulted her in falling with face into the seat and she somehow couldn’t roll back to bring her face upside. The previous experience prompted me to put her front seat and put the safety belt on, from where she wrangled out her way in couple of minutes, with on moving traffic and honking horns I didn’t had option to again make her sit so I just somehow make her stand on the seat and drove back.
It was a real experience for my daughter where she travelled without anyone holding her in lap. The experience of initial crying of being stranded soon become laughter of joy when standing on the seat and peeping out by pressing her face against the window glass. Anyway this experience gave me confidence that my daughter slowly but surely getting ready to become more independent on these small but important things and she is learning the important lessons of her life.
This riding solo experience is one which I really feel that I will cherish for a long time.
My daughter is very fond of playing with me and and always wants to go out with me when I going to office or for shopping or for that matter for any other thing. When I am at home, I am not permitted to watch TV, work on PC or read any book. Albeit for sleeping she will look for her mother and while in sleep my daughter don’t want to be near me most of the times.
Yesterday afternoon was a wonderful day, when we were playing after having lunch (during office break) and suddenly she kept her head on my hand and quickly slept. The soft but deep sleep on my pillow hand was really great feeling – “Feels like heaven”.
As my daughter continues to grow and become more aware, she is driving me crazy to my core. She will intentionally do many activities just which irritates me like anything and that too when she is not even 1 and a half year old. I am just wondering what the devil she will be by the time she goes to school. Yesterday evening,she would just stand next to TV whenever I was watching some program. If I switch off the TV she would come back to me laughing. On switching on the TV the same drama again started. I don’t what she was enjoying the constant switching of TV or to see the helplessness and anger on my face, but she was having a sly smile on her face.
Things are getting lot and lot tougher to handle and sometimes, I lose control of my anger but the anger dies out in few seconds. Well, that for me is being a father. Very hard to handle makes life a challenge every moment but a simple smile or a rush by my daughter towards me with open arms just changes all the equations.
Enjoying the fatherhood.
My daughter just turned 1 year few days back and we had a nice small party. But I have been observing lots of change going through her during last few weeks. The small infant which she has been some 6-8 months back has totally changed. She now identifies me and her mother very well. It is almost impossible to take her away from us. Whenever she wants to play or go outside to park or have some activity she will find ways to be with me.
She has developed a wide range of expressions right from happiness to anger to intolerance to fear to laziness and many more. She looks and behaves like much more like a small human than a baby.
Watching the antics and activity of my daughter is some real fun, even though sometimes things become really difficult if I am trying to concentrate to do some job.
In last few months I have been keenly observing my daughter, my bitta, grow from an baby who was not even able to roll on the bed to a naughty little baby who will pull my hair and poke my nose when I am trying to sleep. Well, she loves to play and wants to go out for a walk any time of the day. A couple of months back, I taught bitta to climb up and down onto a small box, which she quickly mastered and last few days she has been constantly trying to get down from the bed which may be one foot or so higher then the box. She has been successful many times and many times she has failed and hurt herself but whenever she lands on the ground successfully she is very happy and giggles a lot.
These attempts and their result make me think that we adult have forgotten a lot of good habits our younger life. We are more calculative in taking any risk, we want to stick to old successful strategies in life, we don’t celebrate the success but rather cry over small failures. May be nature has made the concept of parenting in only intellectual animal (human) so that they can rediscover the smaller and beautiful thing in the life back again.