As my daughter continues to grow and become more aware, she is driving me crazy to my core. She will intentionally do many activities just which irritates me like anything and that too when she is not even 1 and a half year old. I am just wondering what the devil she will be by the time she goes to school. Yesterday evening,she would just stand next to TV whenever I was watching some program. If I switch off the TV she would come back to me laughing. On switching on the TV the same drama again started. I don’t what she was enjoying the constant switching of TV or to see the helplessness and anger on my face, but she was having a sly smile on her face.
Things are getting lot and lot tougher to handle and sometimes, I lose control of my anger but the anger dies out in few seconds. Well, that for me is being a father. Very hard to handle makes life a challenge every moment but a simple smile or a rush by my daughter towards me with open arms just changes all the equations.
Enjoying the fatherhood.
In last few months I have been keenly observing my daughter, my bitta, grow from an baby who was not even able to roll on the bed to a naughty little baby who will pull my hair and poke my nose when I am trying to sleep. Well, she loves to play and wants to go out for a walk any time of the day. A couple of months back, I taught bitta to climb up and down onto a small box, which she quickly mastered and last few days she has been constantly trying to get down from the bed which may be one foot or so higher then the box. She has been successful many times and many times she has failed and hurt herself but whenever she lands on the ground successfully she is very happy and giggles a lot.
These attempts and their result make me think that we adult have forgotten a lot of good habits our younger life. We are more calculative in taking any risk, we want to stick to old successful strategies in life, we don’t celebrate the success but rather cry over small failures. May be nature has made the concept of parenting in only intellectual animal (human) so that they can rediscover the smaller and beautiful thing in the life back again.